I had wanted to go to Bahama Breeze today, told the kids so they’d remind me. But then yesterday I did some running around and passed hubby working at a car wreck. He’s been so busy lately and last week was a busy week for me with the huge open house at Mom Chats. That I changed my mind and went grocery shopping. The more I was shopping, the more excited I was to stay home.

I have 2 T-bone’s that would make Fred Flintstone drool with envy, a couple of lobster tails, and an incredible bottle of wine. It just came in to the store and it’s from a winery in this state. I’ll get the name for you after I try it. The lady at the wine department said it was just amazing and was excited that I was going to try it instead of the other really good cheaper bottle she suggested at the same time. I’ll look forward to going back and thanking her if it’s super yummy.

I’m set for the day of not doing very much. Isn’t that the reason for the day? Oh and after this coffee is done, I have stuff for mimosa’s with breakfast. If I want, not sure I’m feeling the mimosa’s right now. May end up saving those for later. lol

Happy Mother’s Day to all my incredible followers. I hope you get a day to relax and do as you please!

Val

Tomorrow will be 19 days of vacation for them. Not cool, it’s time for some order and going back to school. Then add on to that the fact I’ve missed so much work because of snow and holidays. I’m floundering offline right now and it’s keeping me up of course.

So it’s just everything all combined with the fact that there is nothing on tv and netflix never wants to ship me any new movies. lol All the movies I want are on a wait. I’m cranky and I’m entitled to be!

2008 has been a big year.  It’s been super high and super low.  But the one thing is has totally been is the coming together of my relationship and how much my husband does mean to me.  For this I can only be grateful for all that 2008 has thrown at me.  We will and can survive anything now.  We’ve been extremely tested and I’m very happy to find out that we run to each other instead of away.

I hope for much smoother sailing in 2009.  I have huge business goals and even more fun time planned with my family.  This will require more online work so I can take it with me.

I hope for all the happiness in the world for you in 2009.  I know there is a brighter future for us out from under the dictatorship of Bush.  I hope that all of us can look for the fun in the everyday and take time to enjoy it.

I’m very thankful for all of my friends that support me in my endevors and I’m super thankful for every reader on this blog!

My house gets decorated in gingerbread for Christmas.  If I have a theme it is gingerbread.  I use theme loosely as I have so many hand-me-down and sentimental decorations that my house is in no means decorated to look like a show room.  lol

This year the kids won’t be making gingerbread houses at school because they have gotten older.  I’m used to decorating the dining room table with them and their huge sheets of aluminum foil covered cardboard plates.  The kids have just as much fun making them as I do looking at their goofy imperfections.  So this year we will have to take the time and make them at home.

I have a free report to share on How to Make a Gingerbread House.  It includes pictures which is always a plus.  I’m totally a visual person.  Feel free to share this report and hopefully I’ll find some more freebies to share this week for my positive post week!

Right click on the link below and save it to your computer.

How to Make a Gingerbread House

It’s 12:33am on thanksgiving.  I had dinner at my parents house and am over the tummy ache now.  Yes, I’ve had some wine since then, but since I had only one meal my calorie count is probably uber good. lol

So I sent son and my nephew to bed after lots of old school movies.  Alien, Alien 2 and then resident evil.  Hasn’t watched resident evil 3 yet, just caught 2 at one time.  But it was getting late and I am tired.

It may be worse cause hubby is obviously busy, I didn’t get a nite, love you on the text tonight and that’s usually ok.  But then I turned on Leno.  It’s a dedication to Cali firefighters.  K, usually, not so whatever, we have a crap load of firefighters everywhere.  BUT, as you know, we lost our Chief to a Cali wildfire

One thing I’m not sure I have mentioned before.  The due date for our oldest child was July 26.  That’s a date a Mom never forgets, even if you are not born on it.  Then 13 years later, our Chief passes away on it.  Again, it is not a date I will ever forget.  You may remember where you were on 9/11 and I do as well, but i remember where I was when our other chiefs got the initial call (we didn’t know yet) and I will forever remember the page going out for an important meeting on a sunday am and the 1.5 hour wait to find out what was so important.  OMG, I’m a wreck right now.  I literally can’t wait for him to come home in the morning.

I’ve been doing so well.  But right now all I keep thinking of it’s his families first holidays without him.  The tears are literally rolling down my face and I’m running out of tissue.  I can’t wait to hug my hubby tomorrow when he gets home.  I didn’t get to text much with him tonight so I’m sure that doesn’t help, he’s always at the busy stations.  That is good, but tonight, not so much.

Yes, I am looking for support.  YES, I will talk to him tomorrow about it.  I had to help him and his friends so much through it that I only got to deal a little bit.  I’m a “bitch” so I need to be the hardass and the shoulder when my boys cry, but I am still a silly, hormonal woman that can’t deal like the rest of them.  I love every single one of them and I better never go through this again.  So help me if it’s one of them I’m truly attached to they will regret ever meeting me after I get up there.  lol

I hope that his wife ran away with the girls tomorrow.  Or maybe she’s stronger than I am and is cooking dinner for the family.  Whatever she is doing my whole being is with her in support this holiday season.  It’s going to be Christmas soon without her beloved husband, their Daddy and their Grandpa.  OMG how do you even go there when he was only 47?  How do you move on without your best friend?

K, I should mention that this maybe started last week.  My son and I were in the tacotime drive through and the stupid Brad Paisley song came on from Chief’s funeral.  I was the strong one until it came up and the video came on with all the boys when they brought him off the plain from cali.  Oh man, maybe I didn’t blog about it, maybe I better relook at what I’ve written and reblog.  It’s possible I’m sure I didn’t blog about it.  Anyway it was “When I get where I am going”.  Sad enough song to listen to.  But try watching a slide show of the Chief being LITERALLY brought home in his coffin on the plane and transported on his beloved engines home.  While all the boys are crying.  My poor son, lol, he didn’t know what was wrong and he’s a softie.  I’m literally tearing up in the drive thru and can’t help it.  lol  I’m dabbing and trying to stop the tear flow, but no success.

So that started it only a few days ago.  I haven’t heard that song until last week.  So it is meant to remind me to hug the hell out of my hubby and appreciate every second with him.  I know he had a bad call recently where the guy was really burnt up.  We couldn’t say it, but the tears in his eyes told me he thought of the pain Chief must have been in when he died.  I’ve been with him too long to not read through the big buy act.

Hug your family tomorrow please, if you can’t hug them, then please do call and tell them how much you appreciate and love them.  You just never know when the time is up.

So I was dancing on the stage with the battling piano’s.  Umm, no there was no dancing at this place.  I just decided there should be.  lol  If I hear music when I’m drunk, I must dance.  Happens no matter where I am.  Home, friends house, the bar, it’s all the same.  Saves me from many hangovers.  If I’m dancing I can’t be drinking.  Then I need water because I’m sweating.  Oh and I’m burning off the calories.

Lordy I did a lot of shots.  Let’s start this story off right.  Hubby took me out to lunch and I had my first drink on Friday at 11:45am.  lololol  By the time we got to the piano bar at 7ish I’d had 3 beers and 3 1/2 sparks (energy alcohol drinks).  I was super happy, but not drunk.  Order my first drink and power through that.  Our friend orders me a double, but I decide to move over to the other table of our group to mingle there and am met with two shots of patron and a cherry bomb.  MMM, like the cherry bomb.  I like anything that has a rockstar with it.  lol  Power them down and those are the last shots I remember doing.  lol  I wasn’t blacked out drunk, I was totally coherent, I just don’t remember taking any more shots.  Course I did and my friends lost count of them.  UMM, hello, friends take care of my stupid butt.  Anyone?  counting my shots?  looking out for me?  Oh, I must mean the one’s that are buying me all the shots?  Yes, those would be the one’s.

Oh no, they are loving the entertainment, why would they cut me off.  Hell no we didn’t want to get you off stage, we loved it.  Again, super friends huh?  lol  I told them payback is a serious bitch and she’s got nothing on what I’ll do to them now.

My friend said I’m in charge of her next bday party.  Her husband is already figuring out all the crappy friends they want me to meet because I am so much more fun and can drink them under the table.  NO GUYS, REALLY!  There was seriously someone looking out for me.  Cause usually I’d be sick for two days after a party like that.  I can’t take a chance of getting a hangover.  I’m not sure how I missed getting one this time.  I’m a terrible drinker, I get sick at the drop of a hat.  Hmm, maybe the pattern here is it was almost all shots? 

Alright, you could probably talk me into it next weekend, but I think we should party at someone’s house so I only have my good friends to embarrass myself in front of.  lol  Plus it’s cheaper.  Holy cow we spent some serious money there.  They had to have loved us.  Oh and a guy that hubby works with showed up.  Course all of B shift was invited, but we didn’t get ahold of everyone before hand.  So he bought all the boys shots to celebrate getting off probation.  They had no idea what it was shots of.  Hubby is working with him right now, so ugh, wonder what other stories are coming out.  lol

I was by far, not the drunkest there so I guess that’s good?  Oh and I’m all bruised to hell.  I was wearing sandals with no traction.  I fell a zillion times and I NEVER fall when I’m drinking.  That’s the part I’m most embarrassed about.  Jeesh, I fell in the parking lot and tore myself up.  I remember that fall cause it hurt.  Next time I need to think ahead on the shoes.  DUH!

Actually it’s turned out really good.  They have complete run of the house and they all get along really well.  Hubby and I both played guitar hero on the easiest level, I wanted the dummy level because I’m so good at video games (roflmao) but they said this was the lowest level possible.  I did 50% so I think I rock no matter how much they boo’d me!  I beat hubby so that’s all that matters.

Tomorrow we are going to have two more boys show up and then brownie ice cream cake.  Crap, better go finish the damn thing so they can eat it.  Then it’s off to play lasor tag.  I’m hoping we will make it back before kick off, but we’ll see.  We’re eating the cake and opening presents before we leave so we don’t have to do it up there.  lol  Figured then we can play the last game and head home quick.  Already need to stop by my parents and drop off my nephew on the way home.  It’s gonna be close.  I better not miss any of the good commercials!

So they aren’t sure at the station if they are going to have a big dinner or not.  Since they know it will be busy, they need to have someone there to cook.  I’ve totally volunteered and I hope another wife can come down too.  It would be much more fun  to hang out with others.  Or at least I say that now.  I haven’t met every wife on B shift yet.  lol  But I’m going to throw myself out there to the wolves and see what happens.  If nothing else it will give me a good blog post right?

Then a friend (gasp) yes I said a friend,  may come over to spend it with the kids and I.  She doesn’t know if she has to work yet or not.  But I’m going to hound her to come over.  Martini’s and junk food!  UGH, I can feel the pounds hitting my gut already and the pounding hangover.  lol  But we will all be safe at home atleast.  As a matter of fact I’m going to send her an email to hound her about it right now.  I do need some local friends. 

There was just a news story about a guy that got $50,000 worth of stuff stolen from his car. FROM INSIDE HIS CAR!!! Now I’m not sure if it was presents or what as I really quit listening to the rest of the story since I think he deserves to just be out the stuff for being so stupid. But it did get us talking. What’s the cap on your stuff stolen from your car anyway? And what in the world did he have in there anyway? See why I couldn’t pay attention to the rest of the story much, I couldn’t get over the fact that someone could have that much stuff of value in their car. lol

But then there is the other problem after you do make the claim with your car insurance. How long are you going to get continued coverage and if you want to switch companies, who in the world wants your dumbass? But if you live or work in an area that has a lot of break ins, make sure you check out what your car insurance will cover.

Did I mention the idiot had $50,000 worth of stuff in the car? That’s more than I will even spend on a car. lol Not more than the car I want is worth, but more than I can justify spending on a car. lmao

Just play smart and don’t keep anything of value in your car. You are just asking for more holiday hassle when you have to deal with replacing it and repairs if they mess things up while getting into it. Is it worth it? No way.

So I’m bummed because I have no money for going out and buying presents.  At least none of my own money like I’d hoped.  Now that we have separated the money I fell guilty when I spend it from the joint account that is primarily his account.  But for almost 16 years, this has been ok.  Why now all of a sudden do I have guilt when I spend money from it?  Something I need to deal with obviously.

I’m hoping to get some chex mex made up and make a list of things that need to be done.  Christmas is exactly a week away and I don’t feel even close to ready for it.  Although our tree looks gorgeous!