Busy Momma

Well I sit here up late, yet again.  That is not abnormal for me, but my feelings about it have been for months.  I’m lonely.  I’m also not the only firefighters spouse in the world.  I’m thinking a new blog may come from this.  It’s one I’ve actually looked at the domain for, so we’ll see.  I’m just trying really hard not to buy anymore domains and start anymore sites or blogs.  lol

But here is my problem.  My blogs are making me much more money than anything else at this time.  And the more productive my blogs are, the more help I can afford to hire to make my other sites work.  I know the sites will be where the true big money is at.

Oh look, I got totally off topic again.  What a surprise, NOT!

I’m lonely and it’s a hard thing to talk to hubby about.  We have friends that are breaking up because of cheating so my being lonely does not look good.  I know how his brain will wrap around it and I don’t like it.  So I’d prefer to start a blog about it and get response from others.  Something for the new year I guess.  Not going to do it tonight.  It’s late enough already.

My heart and thoughts go out to the fallen fire fighters in Charleston. May their families and fellow brothers find comfort in knowing that they are not alone in their mourning. I have been unable to go an hour today without thinking of all of you going through this.

Yes, if you have read my blog for a little while you know that my hubby is a fireman. He has been for 7 years now as a volunteer and was hired full-time in Feb. My only comfort at a time like this is knowing that these men died doing something they truly loved. Even though this is a tragedy that is by no means the norm, it was still with a heavy heart that I sent him off to work yesterday morning.

Even though we are new to the department, I already understand that the IAFF is a brotherhood like no other. I know that you will have help and comfort for many years to come. There is truly no other profession that pulls together in a time of need like the fire fighters.

Please take time out of your day today and over the weekend to say thank you for the men that gave their life looking to save another. And also for the continued safety of those all around you that will gladly do this to save yours.

Well 10 weeks is done for hubby. The first 3 weeks went by so slowly. But the last 7 have gone by much quicker. Absence did make the heart grow fonder in my case. I love him dearly already, but man did I treasure the time we had together on the weekends. Which wasn’t that much since he spent a lot of it studying.

Which I’m glad he did. He bumped up to graduating #6 out of 34 as of the last test. There is still one test not graded (no worries he about him passing it) and I’m not sure if it counts towards their placement in the class or not. This was the man that told everyone he would need a ton of help on the book work. He lacks confidence and sometimes it pisses me off.

I know this is why we are soul-mates for lack of an uncheesy term. We honestly do complete each other. I’m a bitch and he’s mellow. He is underconfident and I have an abundance of it. lol I tend to get fired up immediately about things and he can sit back and analyze it with less emotion. That last one may be a female/male thing, not sure. All I know is it made me laugh thinking about it today after I knew he had completed the last of the tests. I realized that I had done this same talk while he was away at college. I was still in high school and talking him through it all over the phone.

But I’m incredibly proud of him. I can’t wait to get up to the academy with the kids in the morning and meet all of these people I’ve heard about for the last 10 weeks. Especially all of the Capt.’s that have really inspired him to work even harder.

We were going to go to vegas and that would be our anniversary trip and also his graduation present. But then we decided better of it. Of course by this time it is way too late to be getting anything that has actual meaning for his gift. ARGH! Dawned on my Monday that I had nothing to give him at all and that didn’t sit well. So I decided to hit the store I bought his Vanmark Fire Dept. figurines this morning in hope that that was where I actually bought them last time. It sure was the place, but they haven’t carried them in 2 years at least and had no idea where else might. She didn’t think they were even made anymore. AHHHH, not cool. So I went to hallmark and racked my brain for where I’d seen them before. I really hate to have to leave our hill. The other hill is so damn busy.

Hallmark had the name of another store to give a call and that would have been my next hit. But for somereason it dawned on me that I had seen them at a little jewelry store when I took my neighbor there a couple of times. Sure enough, not only did they have 1 of the figurines. But it is the one I REALLY wanted. Unseen Guardian has been out for quite some time now. At least 3 or 4 years. That is about how long ago it was I bought the other figures. lol So I was happy to see it was the one that I knew hubby liked. Now the price on that site is only half of what I paid for. Let me remind you that these are collectibles and are numbered. So the numbers are quite high now over the years. I bought 1/0001. Yep, close to tears. It’s 1/0001. How is that for significance for his graduation? Solidifies my ideal that if it’s meant to be, it’s meant to be. How else could 1/0001 be here in the small jewelers in Bonney Lake? Oh, while I was there, I did put my wish list in for rings. bahahaha Read above, I told you I was a bitch.

K, this post got super long, sorry about that. I’ll post more tomorrow night after meeting everyone. He was supposed to call me tonight after they got back, but no surprise he didn’t. Only 14 more hours until I get to see him again and then another 24 until he’s home for good. YIPPEEE, let life begin anew!

Please remind me to go to this post when his work schedule is driving me crazy and he’s in my space.