Busy Momma

I got a link from Karen on Twitter to go and check out her post about your risk of getting breast and ovarian cancer. I didn’t want to, but like a moth to light I was drawn to see what the quiz would say.

My Mother’s sister had breast cancer before 40 and my paternal Grandma had severe breast cancer and shouldn’t have survived around 60, possibly late 50’s. I wasn’t of an age that I’d pay that much attention. So I figured I’d be off the charts. I mean I do take care of myself, but I do drink and I know that doesn’t help your numbers any.

So I was pleasantly surprised to get the news that I am doing exactly what I should be doing to not get it. I had my kids early and that is a major factor. But I also breast fed both kids for a total of 22 months between the 2 of them. This totally upped my help. My exercise is a big factor. So I feel great and I really appreciate Karen’s post. I feel really good right now knowing that I am doing well keeping myself healthier than my relatives.

How did this happen? My kids are awesome. Yes, they are still kids and we go through crap, but they are truly awesome kids. Neither one of them told Dad happy Father’s day before he went to work today. WTF? They are too old for me to have to tell them to do that.

So I was at my soccer game. Cranky cause the game went to shit since we played the entire 80 minutes with only 10 people and I really needed a sub today with my asthma. I get home and next thing I know he is super pissed off and slamming doors saying bye and going to work. HOLY SHIT, what happened? I know I made him angry, but it wasn’t that big of a deal.

He called me when he got to work and apologized. I then asked him if the kids had even said Happy F Day to him. He said no. AWWW MAN! The poor guys feelings were totally hurt and of course he is in a total funk and not talking about his feelings to anyone so he’d just had it and blew up. I’m happy it looked like he was angry at me.

So we went and bought him the ipod shuffle he’s been wanting and took it to the station. I hadn’t toured that station so we got the grand tour, hugged the guys cause it was all our buddies he was working with today, dropped off cookies and then I made the kids do a ton of cleaning. lol I also had them mow the front yard for him. Course now this just proves that they can do everything and we’ve really raised spoiled brats. ROFLMAO

So it’s better, but still, the poor guy. This will go down as the worst Father’s day ever. OH and to top it off, with all the drama, I forgot to call my dad before he went to work. So now I’m a crappy daughter on top of it! ARGHHHHH, BRATS!!!

Do not puke when Dad isn’t home. It’s not nice. You know Mommy is a sympathy puker and the smell makes me sick too. UGH, have to be a grown up and clean it up. I did it without tossing anything up myself, so I’m getting much better.

Poor son even said, why does this have to happen only when Dad’s not home. Poor guy, he’s throwing up and worried about me because he knows I can’t take it. lol

So it’s cleaned up and it’s official…anyone want a bunk bed? It’s the upperbunk with a desk and shelves below. It is impossible to help change his sheets and when things like this happens it makes a huge mess. That thing is out of here! Where the hell is my stimulus check? I have a bed to buy.

I just finished PS-I love you. Yes, I need a link to that, but I don’t have the energy. For various reasons. This movie is beautiful and I highly recommend it. Yes, it’s sad, but it will have you tearing up and laughing at the same time.

I’m an emotional wreck as usual. Too long hours and no time with hubby.

But the most important is that no matter what I post, I honestly love him. He makes me laugh at all costs, no matter how angry or sad I am. He woke up and told me to go to bed the other night when I was up too late because my great-Aunt passed. He is my everything and I do know this. Now I need to tell him again tomorrow.

He’s going to always frustrate me. He’s my closest family. There will NEVER be anyone closer than he is no matter what. I could never open up to another like he knows, anyone else walking into my relationship would be at a serious disadvantage. Nothing I can do about it, he got me at 17 and it’s forever. lol

But, don’t go thinking we don’t have our issues. It’s just that we have had issues and aren’t talking about them right now. That’s unhealthy and will change asap. NO REGRETS and you get no tomorrow!

K, I am doing very well. Just to let all of you know.

But we are holed up watching movies. We are actually running out of them now. lol Had to move to home stash now even though I had 6 movies to watch starting Friday.

But this works because my addiction has made me buy a new site. OH OH, yep it’s a great domain name though. I’ll be unveiling very soon. I’m just waiting for the dns to transfer to my hosting and to get a couple of pages up. Honestly it was sorely neglected for years and there wasn’t much up.

When I go to the pages cached in google it looks like there were many more pages, but they aren’t linked to anymore from the site.

So it needed serious updating and I’m looking forward to it!

I am so happy that I spent the time I did with her as an adult.  My Great Aunt Dolores was in CA in the 60’s and friends with the hard core Hell’s Angels when they started.   Literally, she was there owning/managing a cycle shop with those men that started the Hell’s Angels.  Man I miss the many stories I never got to ask her because people like my uptight mom where around.

So here is my lesson of love from my Aunt.  I am my grandparent’s child and I am not afraid to say that.   Yes I have faults, but yes, everyone wants to hang with me and my hubby.  I wish I had gotten more stories from her about my grandma.  I am named after my grandma.  I will be calling my aunt tomorrow about it.  I want the good stories and my aunt will give me better stories.  i just text messaged her that I will call her tomorrow.

I’m not doing ok and I’m not afraid to admit it.  I am thankful for the family I have to pull in.  I’m gonna need them, all of them, to get through this.  My aunt was such a very cool person. I can’t believe I won’t ever talk to her again.

My Mom came to my daughters volleyball game and promptly let me know that my super-duper cool Great-Aunt had a severe brain hemorrhage overnight and was in the hospital on life support.  She is pretty much gone already and my cousin was taking her off the ventilator because my Aunt never wanted to be that way.  I’m very happy that my cousin is strong enough to take her Mother off of it as she wished.  I hope my children will do the same.

So here I sit waiting for the horrible phone call saying she is completely gone.  I was truly blessed that she set things up this summer and all of us Tucker women got together twice.  Our trip to Reno this summer was all about this aunt!  Then a few months ago my aunt flew back home from california and all of us met at the casino for breakfast together.  My great-aunt had brought some great family items to give to my Mom and her sisters.  She also told all of the sisters that one of my other Great-aunts had bought plots for the entire family and their spouses so they could all be buried on the island.  I know that my aunt knew that this all needed to be said then as it was the last time we all got together.

I will miss my aunt terribly.  In fact I can’t write anymore right now.  Difficult to believe I know.

I got off work late last night, ugh, hate late appointments that don’t stop talking. So it was bedtime when I got home. Went to put son to bed and he comes off the wall with, “If I come out dressed funny in the morning to worry.” WTF? ROFLMAO He then proceeds to tell me that it’s spirit day. Cool. My kids both get into the whole dress-up spirit days at school. Love that. So here is the costume he made himself and came out in today…

You can tell he put work into the shirt. lol

I drove him to the bus stop because it’s raining pretty hard and I knew he didn’t want to wear a sweatshirt over the outfit.  Of course no one in this stupid neighborhood is dressed up so he’s getting a little nervous.  I held my tongue.  I wanted to ask if he wanted to go home or have me drive him to school, but thought “NO, he can ask”.  He took off the cape for the bus, but he was fine.

It will be good when he gets to school.  Unless I get a call.  You can’t tell, but he has a pair of whity-tighties on over his sisters tights.  lol  I know it’s spirit day, but I wasn’t sure if that was appropriate for school or not.  Guess we’ll see.  He said it would be fine and he hates to get in trouble, so I’m sure it will be.

K, of course I got an sore throat immediately the next day.  Figured I was coming down with it and was ready to go get tested and just get it out of the way.  But we did move everything around in the house and it has been dusty.  Can’t paint the walls with everything on them.

So as of right now, it is just allergies and my throat is feeling better.  I have a client that had strep the beginning of the week though and two other clients that have sounded like the walking dead.  So I’m keeping an eye on everything and I’m sick of people being sick around me and not staying home.  I don’t want it, STAY AWAY!

OH GREAT!  The germs have invaded my house.  I wold have assumed that it was just the fact that he stayed up beyond too late at his buddies house playing halo 3.  5:30am is way too late for 10 year olds!

But this morning we got an early knock on our bedroom door with him in tears needing meds because his throat hurt so bad.  Hubby called and got him in right away to the docs.  Strep it is.  UGH!  Thankfully hubby can stay home with him tomorrow while he’s still contagious.

I’m super tired, but that might be because my sleeping is horrible with my back hurting.  Taking precautions doing extra cleaning, we’ll see.