Yes, I have a problem. I’m feeling restrained. I feel I have to be PC on so many sites. I suffocated my personality right out of things. FUCK OFF, fuck off, fuck off. BTW fuck is my fav four letter word and my go to word of choice.

I’ve had this blog as my personal blog since 2004. I’ve gone through in the last 3-4 years and set a lot of posts to private. Once the internet grew smaller and then definitely when social media became really big I had to change everything. This no longer could be my private blog. Not unless I wanted to pay for all the extras so things stayed unanimous and I’m too cheap for that lol

photo credit MEJones

Dear (MY) First Nation staff,

Please stop sending my mail to my Mom’s house and now my cousin that I rarely get a chance to see. Please also call me INSTEAD of my Mom when mail is returned to you because someone put the wrong address in a computer somewhere.

You have my phone number. I’ve talked to a few of you on the phone so I know my number is in the office somewhere and just about everyone on staff is a cousin for goodness sake. I’ve lived in the same house for 13 years and gotten mail up until this year just fine.

I knew it was going to happen eventually. We talk wine with a few friends and he’s showed a lot more interest and definitely more knowledge. He’s been listening to what I say as I’m learning. I’ll give him that.

I started off in major momma mode and happy. I woke up before the alarm and I was feeling good about myself because I wanted to make homemade fresh blueberry muffins. So getting up early was helpful. It was cool that I had them finished before I wanted, without rushing around and I had everyone’s food packed for the day. I could sit and enjoy my coffee. I wasn’t begrudging my 5:30am get up.

Then I got the text message that the youngest had forgotten his PE uniform. Semester just changed so it’s an easy forget. BUT I had to get up and do it right away. And so it began.

The biggest problem with the occupy my tent city I see is those that aren’t even at the occupy movement. I’ve yet to see a single tweet or blog post from someone actually there.  Don’t complain if you aren’t there. It’s like me calling a play at a football game I didn’t even watch.

But today, I got into it with someone I regularly converse with on twitter and I never thought this would be posting from her fingers. But here is how it goes. I’m a dork and may have miss copy/pasted, but hit me up and I’ll fix it lol

Just like the old days. I gotta vent or explode with the stupidness in my head. I seriously woke up on the wrong side of the bed and I’m cranky as hell.

My hubby slept horribly, therefor I slept even worse. Being a light sleeper sucks. By the time the alarm went off this morning I was pissy and cranky. Such an ugly way to wake up. But it helped that I was feeling good about getting up to make hubby a hot breakfast and his lunch before he left for work. That’s when…

My main issue with the whole occupy a city (#ows) is there seems to be no main purpose. I’ve heard corporate greed, I’ve also heard, the fact shelters were shut down and more in my area. No clear directive which annoys me for a major push like this. Corporate greed is way too generic in my opinion. Don’t hate on every single person that has worked their way up the ladder. That is the American way we’ve taught our kids for the last century, so that is like telling every single one of them they failed.

I was all set to gab about the grammy’s and the red carpet, but alas I had no reason to bother.  Yet again, CBS is posting an awards show delayed…to the time zone it’s actually in.  I shouldn’t be upset, I should have expected it.  So here I go to watch the red carpet and go to twitter to gab and I’m 3 hours behind.  Everyone has already been there, done that and they are on to who is winning and how the show is going.

Cause they are mismanaged. I don’t give a shit what anyone on my twitter wall says. It’s mismanagement from every level. Top to bottom. If you have 8 people scheduled in an hour at $80 a visit for a doctors office and you can’t make your office sustainable then wtf are you doing in business and why am I supposed to trust you to take care of my body? If you can’t keep your department afloat after charging $2600 for less than an hour in the ER, then you are a fuck up. If you can’t make your hospital work after charging my retired in-laws $30k for less than 72 hours & yes that may be with the surgeon’s fee’s, then you are a fuck up.

Here’s the disorder…I have to have prescriptions and natural (yes both) treatments in order to go to sleep at a decent time on most nights. Hmm, sounds like the pills are the disorder and I, honestly and my family should just get used to it. Yeah, it’s not “the norm” but it’s my norm.

I do realize I have other issues that cause my insomnia. But I’m tired of having to take my pills in order to go to sleep. I’m pretty sure it means something if I can’t sleep without them after 5 or 6 weeks. I’m a night owl and can’t help it!