I Need My Hubbie

Tonight I need him more than in a long time. I’m hurt and not getting over it. I should have told him about it last night when my feelings were so hurt. It hasn’t gotten better. But, I hate to be the whiner and I hate to put a bad vibe on his relationships at all. But what else can I do?

In fact today he took overtime, with my blessing, HELLO, good idea for time/half. But I am now depressed farther than ever and having asthma attack because of it. I should call and get treatment, but I never will. I took my inhaler and I’m making an appt for this week for the emotional issues. I’ll be ok, please don’t worry. This is just my outlet.

I texted hubby that I was emotionally done and looking forward to a nite like I’d told him last week. U don’t get to know those details. But I’ll make sure and tell him my heart hurts. I haven’t had emotion cause an asthma attack in a long while. They can fuck off for that. They aren’t worth me feeling like this and still hurting like I am. So I’ll move into pissed beyond belief here soon hopefully. It’ll probably take me crying on hubby’s shoulder first. I just need to cry and whine about it all to a human and not online.

But for now, I’m still hurt. I can’t help it. No matter how hard I fight it, I’m human. I have feelings and they have been torn apart this weekend after they were so raw and happily open from having fun with some of the same people that hurt me.