Disappointing Others
June 27, 2009 by queen of all
Filed under general
It is coming to my attention that I yet again have been worried about disappointing others. I don’t mean others living in my house either. The other 3 in my house are my priority and the only people i worry about disappointing. I know the only way I can disappoint them is by not spending enough time with them. Seriously, I know that is the only way I can really screw that up.
I realize I am behind on my healing posts. They just haven’t come to me easily.
But I am noticing that I am more worried about others thoughts than normal. I guess it may have to do with the fact that my life is really moving to another direction. I’ll be keeping one in tact, but only on the standby with a few of my favs around.
So is it guilt that makes me worry what a few think? Is it because I’ve already moved on past that point? I know this answer, honestly I do. But I’m just pushing it to the forefront of my mind. I need to really commit. Lip service will get my bank account no wear.
Chrissy on Mon, 13th Jul 2009 10:28 am
One of my biggest flaws is worrying about what others think. Came as a child though, I was pinpointed a spoiled rotten cold hearted bitch since I can remember from so many family members because my grandparents raised me most of my life…because while raising their own children while my grandfather was in the military and raising me after he retired, I think sparked most of that.
With that anyway and being judged by pretty much everyone my aunts & uncles and own mother knew just happened to haunt me as an adult today!!
Chrissy’s last blog post..Am I in over my head
queen of all on Mon, 13th Jul 2009 4:00 pm
So instead of helping your grandparents who did a mighty fine job of mostly raising you, they chose to judge you over things you had no control over and probably wouldn’t have chosen if you could have had it any other way. Hmm, odd thing for adults to do.
Nothing I’ve ever done in my family is “good” enough. I know this, I’ve come to terms with it, but still it gets me sometimes. Especially when I’m feeling like a failure in certain ways. Duh, such is life, going through the roller coaster of success and failure. lol