Date rape that is.

There I typed it for all the world to read. After 20 years, I am completely unafraid to let the world know, because it was 200% not my fault. I will not go into details, those are unimportant. But my first time was not a good experience and it was not my fault.

I have not been around many other Native american women. My grandmother was kicked out of the band for marrying my grandpa (total other post there, lol) and although we get along with all of the relatives up in Canada and talk, it was still 2.5 hours away and not something we did more than a few times a year at most.

When I went back to school 3 years ago I met and became friends with another native woman my age. She is studying to be a psychologist. Her passion? Helping Native women who have been raped. Most by family members which thankfully ( there is something to be thankful here?) was not my case. But she had done a ton of study’s on it and the numbers were horrendous. When she did her presentation to the class I was a wreck. Guess what? My presentation was right after hers. lol Our instructor was awesome and we went to break first.

Needless to say we had discussions about it after that. She’d grown up on the Rez, but I had barely been on them. But yet, here I was another Native woman that was raped.

It sickens me to think that some out there would like you to carry a child from that experience. Isn’t it bad enough I could carry some disease for the rest of my life, but now you want me to bring some poor defenseless child into the world with that much hate that started it’s life? God did not ask for that in anyway. Or should i say that MY GOD would not.

Why is this coming up? Because you need to read how Palin charged rape victims for their rape kits. So here are poor women that have gone through the most horrific and embarrassing moment ever and then they get a bill. I did not tell anyone. My parents will never know. Only select few know locally and usually because I feel it can help them when they’ve had it happen as well know. I am a strong woman and I know the fact that my life is so beautiful will help others get through their experience. It may be time for me to look to other areas to help girls and women through this.

But don’t take my post for granted. Read the article about how she is so AGAINST WOMEN! She is evil incarnate and in a time when I am voting the best of the worst, she loses as the devils advocate.

Vote FOR WOMEN and vote OBAMA. Do not fall for the pretty face and the Tina Fey glasses. Although those glasses are hot and I may need to get a pair. lol

I’m adding a huge P.S. to this. After hitting publish I started thinking about. Honestly, I have an amazing man that has helped me through years of dealing with this. He had to start dealing with this at the young age of 18, he is truly the most patient man ever and my perfect soul mate. Believe me, it was baggage. But I have not had the depression each year for the last few years. I am so happy, that I don’t even wish evil things on him anymore, because it’s not worth my energy. In just two weeks it will be the 20 year anniversary of when this happened. It’s just weeks away. Timely I believe, as Palin would charge that 15 1/2 year old I was for a rape kit. WOW, that’s such a step ahead for women.

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