positive, I will remain
K, I’m working really hard at keeping with the positive. But everyone in my life needs to back the fuck off. Yes I know I am the one that listens to EVERYONE’s problems. I understand I put myself in that position and I’m ok with it. I don’t mind it. But sometimes all the give I do needs to be replaced with taking. It’s my turn for the drama and everyone needs to figure that out. I can’t take anymore of yours! It must be all about me right now!
K, I’m feeling a little better already. But alas, I need to have a major conversation and there is just never a good time for one of those. :( Hubby and I need to get to talking or it’s going to keep getting worse. We can’t fix things if he doesn’t even know they are a problem. I need a girls night really bad, a get drunk, cry and trash on everyone, girls night. But if I do that I may be giving up the only evening I could have a real conversation with hubby.
Neighbor girl is spending the night tonight so that doesn’t leave much room for an indepth conversation. Why do I make this so hard on myself? Why do I wait until I’m going to explode before I even think that anything that is bothering me is worth telling people? I’m sure I’ll do what I always do. I’ll bitch a little here and there, laugh and make jokes about it, then go another 3 months before I get to the point I want to move out. UGH
