Such a funk
Posted on October 2nd, 2007 by queen of all • Filed under: bitchy day
I don’t know if it’s the weather or what. But I just feel as though I’m muddling through my days. I do have great times and lots of laughs, but then the rest can pass in a blur or feels like I’m just getting through it. I’m beginning to wonder if this is normal? Does everyone do this? Or should I go see my doctor about it? I hate drugs though and I’m horrible at remembering to take them. So what would a doctor do? lol
Guess I just need to figure out another way to break the funk. How about making money! That would break the funk. Most of the time it’s the stress of the damn phone ringing when I know it’s someone wanting money. I swear, I’m paying bills today. I just have to run to the bank. Oh and maybe if I ever balanced my 3 checkbooks I’d feel better as well. So, what do you think? Possibly causing my own bipolarness by not being financially responsible?
Ok, gotta do what I just said and pay some damn bills! UGH, I’ll just have to pay them again next month. I freakin hate it. I liked it so much better when we were paying cash for everything. Although tv and phones and such have to be paid anyway.
You know, at this point, I would just start “keeping an eye on your funks”. If tend to start happening more often and last longer then yeah, maybe you should see a doctor. Otherwise it really could just be an old fashioned case of the blues. Yes, people do just get blue once in a while, lol!
I say it this way because I honestly believe today society is just over-drugged. We’re medicated for this and were medicated for that and don’t forget the medications we’re on because of the side effects of the first one. Know what I mean?
May I mention the drug you’re on for ten years because it’s the best thing next to sliced bread. It’s a cure all - feel better kind of drug. Only to find out that now ten years later peole are dropping dead left and right from it!
And I think … folks didn’t take meds for such and such ailments many years ago. But, on the flip side of it all, we’re living many more years than they did too!
I’m on a medication right now that definitely has some possible nasty remifications in the future - one being cancer. But, the chances of it happening are really slim. It took me ten miserable years to finally get the insurance company to agree that I should be on it. YES! I said INSURANCE COMPANY. NOT my DOCTOR. Not the one who went to college for how many years and saw me on a regular basis knowing what I was going through. Oh and it had nothing to do with the fact that I could get cancer … but everything to do with the fact that this drug costs $4500 every six weeks did. (Yeah, that’s a whole other tangent I could go on but I won’t, lol!)
Anyway … ten years I spent absolutely miserable. The quality of my life sucked. Put it this way to give you an idea … I fell asleep one Christmas morning while my kids opened Christmas presents! Yeah, it sucked. Well, I finally was able to try this other drug and the quality of my life has risen ten fold and then some. So, the slight chance that I could develop cancer many years down the road … yeah, I’m ready to take that chance. I would rather live an extra 30 quality years than another 50 miserable. Know what I mean?
Whoa … did I go off topic here or what? LOL! You did though .. you mentioned taking drugs, lol!
But, long story short. Keep an eye on your funks and if they start to come more often and last longer then yeah, maybe see your doctor. Otherwise, be like I’ve been … focus on making more money … that’ll surely get you out of your funk
P.S. Love the new theme!
You are absolutely correct and this is why I never took it years ago when it was actually prescribed to me for my horrible PMS. Medical issues make my PMS worse than normal. And surprise I do believe I am PMSing. But PMS to me just means I’m pissed off or hurt enough to finally stand up for myself.
Anyway, I didn’t take the meds then because of all the side effects. It wasn’t worth it then. Now I think I’m getting close, but maybe that means I need to go see a therapist first. Take a non-invasive option before drugs.
I can tell everyone right now, it is relationship issues that has me in my funk. The air is very thick and uncomfortable right now and I just don’t know what the hell to do about it. I’m sick of being the one that has to bring things up. Anyway, I can’t post much more on here because there are just some issues that need to stay a little private. SIGH
Girl! You KNOW my email address!! You’ve listened to my issues … PLEASE let me listen to yours!